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Post by me on Sept 16, 2016 11:54:49 GMT -5
Today I have implanted a very important word in my 8 year old wheelchair girl's head: EMINEM! She steered the conversation totally on her own, talking about rich people, leading to celebs being rich, leading to if I know who Rihanna was, leading to which other artists I've seen live I made sure to mention his name at least 6 times! You gotta start early with the brainwashing I also did an info paper to my dance class girls. I'm trying a different performance this year; instead of working on one and the same choreography for a longer time, I'm mixing small bits and pieces of different dance styles, dancing to different songs. They will also need different clothes, and I figured I'd do an info paper about the clothes, so I put little pictures of what kind of outfits I want them to have, and in one dance they're gonna have caps, and I totally put a pic of a Shady LTD cap "I am a woman on a mission Nothing can stop me, I’m stronger than ever I’m gonna see this through I am a woman on a mission Whatever it takes I will do what I gotta do"
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Post by willowmoonblood on Sept 16, 2016 12:53:38 GMT -5
Today I have implanted a very important word in my 8 year old wheelchair girl's head: EMINEM! She steered the conversation totally on her own, talking about rich people, leading to celebs being rich, leading to if I know who Rihanna was, leading to which other artists I've seen live I made sure to mention his name at least 6 times! You gotta start early with the brainwashing I also did an info paper to my dance class girls. I'm trying a different performance this year; instead of working on one and the same choreography for a longer time, I'm mixing small bits and pieces of different dance styles, dancing to different songs. They will also need different clothes, and I figured I'd do an info paper about the clothes, so I put little pictures of what kind of outfits I want them to have, and in one dance they're gonna have caps, and I totally put a pic of a Shady LTD cap "I am a woman on a mission Nothing can stop me, I’m stronger than ever I’m gonna see this through I am a woman on a mission Whatever it takes I will do what I gotta do"LOL you remind me of drilling my two youngest daughters on "good music" So far they can ID Eminem, Elvis and Michael Jackson. I am working on George Michael, he doesn't have many uppity types of songs though that is what my girls tend to notice quicker. Anyways if one of their song comes on I always ask "Who is this?" They will listen for a minute and then yell out "Eminem or Michael or whoever" LOL
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Post by cally on Sept 16, 2016 15:16:06 GMT -5
Today I have implanted a very important word in my 8 year old wheelchair girl's head: EMINEM! She steered the conversation totally on her own, talking about rich people, leading to celebs being rich, leading to if I know who Rihanna was, leading to which other artists I've seen live I made sure to mention his name at least 6 times! You gotta start early with the brainwashing I also did an info paper to my dance class girls. I'm trying a different performance this year; instead of working on one and the same choreography for a longer time, I'm mixing small bits and pieces of different dance styles, dancing to different songs. They will also need different clothes, and I figured I'd do an info paper about the clothes, so I put little pictures of what kind of outfits I want them to have, and in one dance they're gonna have caps, and I totally put a pic of a Shady LTD cap "I am a woman on a mission Nothing can stop me, I’m stronger than ever I’m gonna see this through I am a woman on a mission Whatever it takes I will do what I gotta do"LOL you remind me of drilling my two youngest daughters on "good music" So far they can ID Eminem, Elvis and Michael Jackson. I am working on George Michael, he doesn't have many uppity types of songs though that is what my girls tend to notice quicker. Anyways if one of their song comes on I always ask "Who is this?" They will listen for a minute and then yell out "Eminem or Michael or whoever" LOL hahaha that is so cute!!!!how old are they?? I do the same with my boyfriend haha so far he only says Eminem to whoever is on...I wanted to kill him when last week he thought This is what you came for song by Rihanna was actually Justin Bieber...I lost it and turn off the radio hahaha so far he still has no idea who Beyonce is...if is a woman, he says is either Britney Spears or Madonna but I´m starting to think those are the only 2 he knows
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Post by willowmoonblood on Sept 17, 2016 8:20:16 GMT -5
LOL you remind me of drilling my two youngest daughters on "good music" So far they can ID Eminem, Elvis and Michael Jackson. I am working on George Michael, he doesn't have many uppity types of songs though that is what my girls tend to notice quicker. Anyways if one of their song comes on I always ask "Who is this?" They will listen for a minute and then yell out "Eminem or Michael or whoever" LOL hahaha that is so cute!!!!how old are they?? I do the same with my boyfriend haha so far he only says Eminem to whoever is on...I wanted to kill him when last week he thought This is what you came for song by Rihanna was actually Justin Bieber...I lost it and turn off the radio hahaha so far he still has no idea who Beyonce is...if is a woman, he says is either Britney Spears or Madonna but I´m starting to think those are the only 2 he knows They are 11 and 6. My six year old has been singing the hooks of songs since she could speak. One day my husband got in the car and she started singing Rhianna's part to "The Monster". He looked at me and said "So someone been playing Eminem around the kids" But they love "The Monster" and "Cinderella Man" I think because they thought he was singing about Cinderella? LOL Your boyfriend reminds me of my Dad (I am showing my age here) when I was a teenager he thought any music that wasn't country music was Michael Jackson. He would beat on the wall between the kitchen and my room and say "turn that Jackson down!" and it would be Madonna or Guns n Roses or someone like that LOL I am not sure how he could think Justin Bieber was Rhianna though LOL
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Post by cally on Sept 17, 2016 10:34:23 GMT -5
Aww your kids are so cute! I know when I have my baby I'm gonna be playing Em since before is born
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Post by GG102 on Sept 17, 2016 14:47:55 GMT -5
I just stole two of your emojis, me , because there's slim pickens on the SS...
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Post by sparrow on Sept 18, 2016 23:33:45 GMT -5
LOL if I ever get knocked up I'll put on some Em and wrap the headphones around my belly. My baby's forst word will be "ho".
My dad for some reason refers to all rap as "that snoop doggy dogg music". Like he would call Sugarhill Gang snoop doggy dogg. And even then he always says Snoop's name wrong. "Turn off that god damn snoopy doop dogg music."
Dads. <3
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Post by me on Sept 19, 2016 9:29:02 GMT -5
Awesome
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Post by me on Sept 19, 2016 9:34:16 GMT -5
Hahaha if I ever have kids they're gonna know who eminem is before they know their own names
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Post by Aria on Sept 20, 2016 5:25:15 GMT -5
True story: one of daughter's; her first word was "fuck" while we were listening to Hailie's Song...
I am both ashamed and oddly proud of it.
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Post by Aria on Sept 21, 2016 18:02:49 GMT -5
So, in trying to keep myself active (and I will flesh out my profile a bit at some point today) I thought I'd put an update here in this thread: I'm attending an online NA meeting today for the first time (I have recently gotten out of hospital from an OD on painkillers....long story) and it will get me geared up for the actual in-person meeting I'm attending next week.
Long story short, I became an addict in 2003 after the loss of my children. In September of 2005, I got clean. Only with the support of friends. No sponsor, no meetings or counselling. However, the "bad times" were covered up with a ton of binge drinking....
Last year, I had a miscarriage in January, and by May, I had relapsed. It got to the point I was downing 50+ pills a day, and then I got clean on July 26th this year (a memorable date for me, which is why it was chosen), However, I made it a few days away from 8 weeks clean again, and crashed badly. I was a day away from complete liver failure. If it wasn't for my mom insisting I go to the hospital that Tuesday morning, I would not be typing this right now. I probably would have been dead by the afternoon.
Right now, I'm taking it one day at a time. When I first left the hospital I was still wailing about "never again" like an unrealistic buffoon, but now, I know that it's not just going to be easy to say "remember that hospital stay..." ESPECIALLY when my depression kicks in and I just don't care about the consequences. Especially since I've been taken off of my anti-depressant medications due to their "liver damaging properties" and I'm doing it all solo again.
I'm terrified. I'm scared that I'm going to fail again and that I'm going to be another statistic. No matter how serious I want my life back. No matter how much work I put in... I feel like I'm not strong enough.
And that's enough rambling from me. I just had to get that out, I guess. First time I've admitted that I'm scared I can't do it.
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Post by sparrow on Sept 21, 2016 18:44:18 GMT -5
So, in trying to keep myself active (and I will flesh out my profile a bit at some point today) I thought I'd put an update here in this thread: I'm attending an online NA meeting today for the first time (I have recently gotten out of hospital from an OD on painkillers....long story) and it will get me geared up for the actual in-person meeting I'm attending next week. Long story short, I became an addict in 2003 after the loss of my children. In September of 2005, I got clean. Only with the support of friends. No sponsor, no meetings or counselling. However, the "bad times" were covered up with a ton of binge drinking.... Last year, I had a miscarriage in January, and by May, I had relapsed. It got to the point I was downing 50+ pills a day, and then I got clean on July 26th this year (a memorable date for me, which is why it was chosen), However, I made it a few days away from 8 weeks clean again, and crashed badly. I was a day away from complete liver failure. If it wasn't for my mom insisting I go to the hospital that Tuesday morning, I would not be typing this right now. I probably would have been dead by the afternoon. Right now, I'm taking it one day at a time. When I first left the hospital I was still wailing about "never again" like an unrealistic buffoon, but now, I know that it's not just going to be easy to say "remember that hospital stay..." ESPECIALLY when my depression kicks in and I just don't care about the consequences. Especially since I've been taken off of my anti-depressant medications due to their "liver damaging properties" and I'm doing it all solo again. I'm terrified. I'm scared that I'm going to fail again and that I'm going to be another statistic. No matter how serious I want my life back. No matter how much work I put in... I feel like I'm not strong enough. And that's enough rambling from me. I just had to get that out, I guess. First time I've admitted that I'm scared I can't do it. I'm a recovering alcoholic and can relate to a lot of this. You are going to be overwhelmed with info so I will keep this short. You are strong enough. If you relapse again you are still strong enough. It's weird but the part of us that does what we have to do to fuel our addiction is the same part we use to overcome it--it's a matter of getting the survival instinct pointed back in the right direction. Second, a lot of people thrive with NA/AA but there ARE non-12 step options out there (SMART Recovery is a good one) as well as the option of individual therapy with addiction specialists. I only mention this because when I started it seemed very one size fits all and I had a lot of issues with the religious element of 12 step plans, so I like to let people know there are other ways to recover just in case NA/AA doesn't mesh. Good luck aria, I know it's beyond daunting.
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Post by Aria on Sept 21, 2016 19:15:01 GMT -5
Thank you, sparrow (I'm not sure how to tag correctly, so I hope that worked). It is relieving to know that someone here understands. I don't really have an issue with the 12-step plans, as I am slightly religious (though, not overly so) but I also have never heard of SMART Recovery. Sadly, where I am (Australia) not a lot of options are available for those who are not on private health cover. We don't even get easy access to treatment centers. The only one for people on public health, is 6 month live-in retreat way out in the country and the waiting list to even get into it is 2+ years long! So it's quite pointless. Plus, I cannot just shift for 6 months. I have dogs I need to take care of that would have nowhere else to go. If I relapse again....I may not even survive it. If my liver doesn't fully recover and is permanently damaged, I could be worse off. My fear is though, that if my depression gets so bad that I just don't care, well, I'm not going to be physically strong enough. It's basically been told to me that if I even take ONE painkiller in the next 6 months alone, I could be facing a slow and painful death. The worst part being, my drug of choice doesn't even need a prescription by a doctor. It can be sold OTC in small amounts - which was half of my problem. It was not the opiates that put me in hospital - it was the "harmless" binding chemical that I became toxic from because I took a box of 40 pills with less than 12 hours after having nothing in my system for 2 months except for alcohol 48 hours beforehand. And probably as another addict you know, that my mind tries to "get around" the problems and find a "solution" in order to find another way to get it. THAT'S what scares me. A few months ago, I had a friend teach me how to "extract" the opiates and strain/toss the bind. The danger is always there that I could use that...but G-d knows what that could lead to, and that scares me. When when I'm in that place....it doesn't scare me. I just want to find that "safe way" to get that numb feeling. I'm sorry...I don't mean to blurt this all out. It's probably not the right place for it. I haven't told anyone except here how I'm really feeling. I'm terrified to. My mom already thinks I'm going to fail and looks at me like she doesn't even believe me that I want to get rid of this stupid demon. But...thus is the nature of our relationshup I'm afraid. I could be the first resident to move to Jupiter and she would still be whining about something I'm doing wrong. Lol.
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Post by GG102 on Sept 21, 2016 19:20:36 GMT -5
Be strong, Aria, and I know how hard that is when you're in "recovery." One of my best friends, a beautiful young woman in her late twenties, died from alcohol poisoning. I think about her every day. She was gorgeous and, at one time, had the world at her feet. And then, poof...She was gone. Be well!
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Post by nelly on Sept 21, 2016 20:49:22 GMT -5
So sorry to hear about your struggles Aria! Fear is a strong motivator so I think the fact that you are afraid of failing will actually help you. You can pull through, have faith in yourself! Good luck with the NA program!
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