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[matty]

Hey guys 

Just letting you know I won't be posting on this board anymore. And I know the following content is going to sound absolutely insane but I have been on this board (and original board since I was like 15!) I posted on this board, what was once D12 World message board and was known as the only crazy Stan on ONTD lmao. I still get messages from ppl on there even though I haven't posted in years lol so I felt like it was only right that I say my goodbyes and reasoning behind it. 

I get most will roll their eyes and be like "lol just don't post anymore" but this isn't a normal board for me. Its been such a BIG part of my life 
One thing about me is that I have a SUPER addicting personality and I love to solve puzzles. I like mysteries and interesting people and psychology. I was the type of kid who was reading Harry Potter till 5 am in the morning as a kid or Agatha Christies novels.  And thats one of the main reasons why I have been so obsessed with Em for so LONG. He is an interesting character I think we can all agree and I felt like I could relate to him so much but lately thats slowly going away and intrigued is just becoming annoyance. 

Realizing someone u stanned for 20 plus years is probably not who u thought he was is a punch in the face but also freeing in a way. Most celebs are fake I guess. The funniest thing is Britney is called crazy yet she is probably the sane/nice out of them all and had the guts to step away from her entire team/circle pretty much all by herself. The irony.

Anyway enjoy the more BS for the next 10 yrs guys. How can one Stan any of those guys in Ems circle I have no idea. Posting pictures of dead dads on Instagram, scamming young artists, stealing beats, fucking one another over and over again, taking sides with snoop and game and Nick. Calling Em horrible names and each other. Tricking each other. It’s just nasty business. Blaming each other for a failed shitty ass group, manipulating each other, the passive aggressiveness and side ways compliments are just nasty.  And they all deserve each other at this point including Em and Stans that like that sort of shit deserve it too. Enjoy the messy Game drama that Royce was instigating today when his friend is 50 fuckin years old and should be diffusing this shit before it ruins his "friends" career. Enjoy all the ppl using Ems name and Em just letting it happen and making him look like a parody of himself. Enjoy the rappity rap that he has been doing since his obsession with SH. Enjoy the one -two posts from Em that are probably Paul anyway lol. 

I for one am so over it and the mystery that is Em intrigue is slowly diffusing and being replaced with annoyance. And it’s funny because I am such an obsessive person but I am also someone who can cut shit off pretty quickly once I realize how stupid it is or toxic it is. And I think Royce name dropping Em and hanging out with Denaun after the toxic and disgusting temper tantrum he pulled yet AGAIN was ironically the last straw. Like I can't deal with another cycle of this bullshit. I don't know why this time but it just clicked for me. Its like witnessing a friend going back to an abusive relationship over again when you can see how toxic it is. and I am over Em hanging out with this toxicity it isn't normal. Just like Royce choosing Joe over and over again -Em choosing royce over and over again is the same thing. The people you surround yourself is the reflection of yourself. And its not just how royce treats Em. He is a pathological liar and did so much snake shit it makes me queazy- and his pattern happens OVER AND OVER again and I am just not looking forward to witness the same cycle again. Then add in Pauls ass who is just weird...idk man. 

stanning Em for me is not healthy...it is NOT fun and just makes me snippy (probably cuz I am realizing he probably isn't the person he was even after all these years of trying to figure him out). People who think that this type of entertainment is fun or the way Em's friends or team treat him and one another is okay or normal aren't good people themselves. NOT saying any of you all are bad ppl - just deluded stans on like Instagram/twitter. I understand a lot of ppl can ignore the whole toxic friend dynamics Em has going on but I am just not that type person. I am all or nothing. Its a gift and a curse. Plus lets be real. Em will always love rapping but I don't think he likes entertaining anymore. Which is fine but getting crumbs once in a while then five years of only SH BS isn't worth it lol

To put it simply: I just don't want to care about Em anymore. And I know its going to take a min to stop caring but this board is a big part of the problem..

I will probably delete my account around May - I want to save old messages and stuff and delete posts that I do not want on here anymore and it will take a min or if my addiction to this board lets up and I don't check it every day/week then I will keep it. I have not decided yet. But knowing me I will have to delete it cuz its so easy to check my phone and get caught up in Em drama and mehhhhh.

But anyway I want to thank all the OGs for all the fun over the years! I know its just a message board but it was a big part of my life and I met some great people that personally have been there for me and I really appreciate all of y'all- even the ones I sparred with (and most likely won  - JK JK JK JK). Please continue to stay safe and I hope everyone enjoys the new Em era! 

[sparrow]

Apr 21, 2022 2:40:28 GMT -5 matty said:

Hey guys 

Just letting you know I won't be posting on this board anymore. And I know the following content is going to sound absolutely insane but I have been on this board (and original board since I was like 15!) I posted on this board, what was once D12 World message board and was known as the only crazy Stan on ONTD lmao. I still get messages from ppl on there even though I haven't posted in years lol so I felt like it was only right that I say my goodbyes and reasoning behind it. 

I get most will roll their eyes and be like "lol just don't post anymore" but this isn't a normal board for me. Its been such a BIG part of my life 
One thing about me is that I have a SUPER addicting personality and I love to solve puzzles. I like mysteries and interesting people and psychology. I was the type of kid who was reading Harry Potter till 5 am in the morning as a kid or Agatha Christies novels.  And thats one of the main reasons why I have been so obsessed with Em for so LONG. He is an interesting character I think we can all agree and I felt like I could relate to him so much but lately thats slowly going away and intrigued is just becoming annoyance. 

Realizing someone u stanned for 20 plus years is probably not who u thought he was is a punch in the face but also freeing in a way. Most celebs are fake I guess. The funniest thing is Britney is called crazy yet she is probably the sane/nice out of them all and had the guts to step away from her entire team/circle pretty much all by herself. The irony.

Anyway enjoy the more BS for the next 10 yrs guys. How can one Stan any of those guys in Ems circle I have no idea. Posting pictures of dead dads on Instagram, scamming young artists, stealing beats, fucking one another over and over again, taking sides with snoop and game and Nick. Calling Em horrible names and each other. Tricking each other. It’s just nasty business. Blaming each other for a failed shitty ass group, manipulating each other, the passive aggressiveness and side ways compliments are just nasty.  And they all deserve each other at this point including Em and Stans that like that sort of shit deserve it too. Enjoy the messy Game drama that Royce was instigating today when his friend is 50 fuckin years old and should be diffusing this shit before it ruins his "friends" career. Enjoy all the ppl using Ems name and Em just letting it happen and making him look like a parody of himself. Enjoy the rappity rap that he has been doing since his obsession with SH. Enjoy the one -two posts from Em that are probably Paul anyway lol. 

I for one am so over it and the mystery that is Em intrigue is slowly diffusing and being replaced with annoyance. And it’s funny because I am such an obsessive person but I am also someone who can cut shit off pretty quickly once I realize how stupid it is or toxic it is. And I think Royce name dropping Em and hanging out with Denaun after the toxic and disgusting temper tantrum he pulled yet AGAIN was ironically the last straw. Like I can't deal with another cycle of this bullshit. I don't know why this time but it just clicked for me. Its like witnessing a friend going back to an abusive relationship over again when you can see how toxic it is. and I am over Em hanging out with this toxicity it isn't normal. Just like Royce choosing Joe over and over again -Em choosing royce over and over again is the same thing. The people you surround yourself is the reflection of yourself. And its not just how royce treats Em. He is a pathological liar and did so much snake shit it makes me queazy- and his pattern happens OVER AND OVER again and I am just not looking forward to witness the same cycle again. Then add in Pauls ass who is just weird...idk man. 

stanning Em for me is not healthy...it is NOT fun and just makes me snippy (probably cuz I am realizing he probably isn't the person he was even after all these years of trying to figure him out). People who think that this type of entertainment is fun or the way Em's friends or team treat him and one another is okay or normal aren't good people themselves. NOT saying any of you all are bad ppl - just deluded stans on like Instagram/twitter. I understand a lot of ppl can ignore the whole toxic friend dynamics Em has going on but I am just not that type person. I am all or nothing. Its a gift and a curse. Plus lets be real. Em will always love rapping but I don't think he likes entertaining anymore. Which is fine but getting crumbs once in a while then five years of only SH BS isn't worth it lol

To put it simply: I just don't want to care about Em anymore. And I know its going to take a min to stop caring but this board is a big part of the problem..

I will probably delete my account around May - I want to save old messages and stuff and delete posts that I do not want on here anymore and it will take a min or if my addiction to this board lets up and I don't check it every day/week then I will keep it. I have not decided yet. But knowing me I will have to delete it cuz its so easy to check my phone and get caught up in Em drama and mehhhhh.

But anyway I want to thank all the OGs for all the fun over the years! I know its just a message board but it was a big part of my life and I met some great people that personally have been there for me and I really appreciate all of y'all- even the ones I sparred with (and most likely won  - JK JK JK JK). Please continue to stay safe and I hope everyone enjoys the new Em era! 

I'll miss you if you go. Half the time it's just us having a conversation, lol.

I think Em turns a blind eye to his fair weather friends bc he can't really go and make new ones at this point in his famous life. The devil you know kind of thing.

But do what you have to do. I'm on FB if you want to stay in touch.

[GG102]

Carry on, matty, and all the best to you!

[annie18]

 ahh matty I'm going to miss you too. I'm always looking forward to your opinions about things but I get it, and I think the situation you're referring isn't gonna change so the healthy thing is to move on. 
I'm on twitter if you want to chat just about random things not em related hahaha

[tcat]

nooooooooooooooooo matty!  Don't go!  Where am I going to get my stupid  Royce shit update that you always make so hilarious? 


I understand if you have to move on but I will miss you and your interesting take on things.  I wish you well and if you change you mind, I'll be super happy.


Take care and thanks for the laughs. 

[me]

Take care matty ! 
…and you know where we are if you change your mind

[antoniaalex18]

Apr 21, 2022 2:40:28 GMT -5 matty said:

Hey guys 

Just letting you know I won't be posting on this board anymore. And I know the following content is going to sound absolutely insane but I have been on this board (and original board since I was like 15!) I posted on this board, what was once D12 World message board and was known as the only crazy Stan on ONTD lmao. I still get messages from ppl on there even though I haven't posted in years lol so I felt like it was only right that I say my goodbyes and reasoning behind it. 

I get most will roll their eyes and be like "lol just don't post anymore" but this isn't a normal board for me. Its been such a BIG part of my life 
One thing about me is that I have a SUPER addicting personality and I love to solve puzzles. I like mysteries and interesting people and psychology. I was the type of kid who was reading Harry Potter till 5 am in the morning as a kid or Agatha Christies novels.  And thats one of the main reasons why I have been so obsessed with Em for so LONG. He is an interesting character I think we can all agree and I felt like I could relate to him so much but lately thats slowly going away and intrigued is just becoming annoyance. 

Realizing someone u stanned for 20 plus years is probably not who u thought he was is a punch in the face but also freeing in a way. Most celebs are fake I guess. The funniest thing is Britney is called crazy yet she is probably the sane/nice out of them all and had the guts to step away from her entire team/circle pretty much all by herself. The irony.

Anyway enjoy the more BS for the next 10 yrs guys. How can one Stan any of those guys in Ems circle I have no idea. Posting pictures of dead dads on Instagram, scamming young artists, stealing beats, fucking one another over and over again, taking sides with snoop and game and Nick. Calling Em horrible names and each other. Tricking each other. It’s just nasty business. Blaming each other for a failed shitty ass group, manipulating each other, the passive aggressiveness and side ways compliments are just nasty.  And they all deserve each other at this point including Em and Stans that like that sort of shit deserve it too. Enjoy the messy Game drama that Royce was instigating today when his friend is 50 fuckin years old and should be diffusing this shit before it ruins his "friends" career. Enjoy all the ppl using Ems name and Em just letting it happen and making him look like a parody of himself. Enjoy the rappity rap that he has been doing since his obsession with SH. Enjoy the one -two posts from Em that are probably Paul anyway lol. 

I for one am so over it and the mystery that is Em intrigue is slowly diffusing and being replaced with annoyance. And it’s funny because I am such an obsessive person but I am also someone who can cut shit off pretty quickly once I realize how stupid it is or toxic it is. And I think Royce name dropping Em and hanging out with Denaun after the toxic and disgusting temper tantrum he pulled yet AGAIN was ironically the last straw. Like I can't deal with another cycle of this bullshit. I don't know why this time but it just clicked for me. Its like witnessing a friend going back to an abusive relationship over again when you can see how toxic it is. and I am over Em hanging out with this toxicity it isn't normal. Just like Royce choosing Joe over and over again -Em choosing royce over and over again is the same thing. The people you surround yourself is the reflection of yourself. And its not just how royce treats Em. He is a pathological liar and did so much snake shit it makes me queazy- and his pattern happens OVER AND OVER again and I am just not looking forward to witness the same cycle again. Then add in Pauls ass who is just weird...idk man. 

stanning Em for me is not healthy...it is NOT fun and just makes me snippy (probably cuz I am realizing he probably isn't the person he was even after all these years of trying to figure him out). People who think that this type of entertainment is fun or the way Em's friends or team treat him and one another is okay or normal aren't good people themselves. NOT saying any of you all are bad ppl - just deluded stans on like Instagram/twitter. I understand a lot of ppl can ignore the whole toxic friend dynamics Em has going on but I am just not that type person. I am all or nothing. Its a gift and a curse. Plus lets be real. Em will always love rapping but I don't think he likes entertaining anymore. Which is fine but getting crumbs once in a while then five years of only SH BS isn't worth it lol

To put it simply: I just don't want to care about Em anymore. And I know its going to take a min to stop caring but this board is a big part of the problem..

I will probably delete my account around May - I want to save old messages and stuff and delete posts that I do not want on here anymore and it will take a min or if my addiction to this board lets up and I don't check it every day/week then I will keep it. I have not decided yet. But knowing me I will have to delete it cuz its so easy to check my phone and get caught up in Em drama and mehhhhh.

But anyway I want to thank all the OGs for all the fun over the years! I know its just a message board but it was a big part of my life and I met some great people that personally have been there for me and I really appreciate all of y'all- even the ones I sparred with (and most likely won  - JK JK JK JK). Please continue to stay safe and I hope everyone enjoys the new Em era! 

i have no idea if you will see this message or not but im going to express my feelings anyway lol, and i have to mention y'all can believe everything you want about Em, this is just how i feel: im so done with all the blaming and portraying Em as a snake,liar and a monster just bc of how Royce is..like i get where it comes from but come on. Judge the individual by his actions,not by the group..Ik i will be called silly or naive for it, but atp i don't give a fuck.

I appreciated and emphatized with a LOT of your posts bc i feel the same about his team and Em, his team is full of bad and manipulative ppl and Em is a fascinating person for me and got obssesed with him, which rarely happens.I don't believe Em is a "pathological liar and a snake", Royce is imo. He's a toxic narcissist and Em seems to just turn a blind eye to his bs,i might have some reasons why but i won't get into it. Denaun and Paul are just weird idk. I said this before, im NOT going to judge Eminem based on Royce's or idk who else's behavior. Eminem is an individual,HIS actions are an indicator of HIS personality,not Royce's actions indicate Eminem's personality. Yeah, i believe Em is a genuine and good person with flaws and all, sue me for it.Also i don't believe the "Em is a great liar and you have to take everything he says with a grain of salt" bs,at least for the most part lmao and i won't believe it even more just bc YOU said so, go say that about Royce or Denaun or his team in general, altho im not fully on page with the "he's a product of a huge machine that tells him what to say and do half the time" statement..Tbh is kind of hypocritical and confusing when u say "Em lies all the time" while believing what Em said about his traumas throughout the years for ex, but believe what you want ig...Not everything is staged or a conspiracy.

I get that we don't know Em personally and that a lot of persons aren't who they are and probably a part of him deserves the ppl he's surrounded with but still, there is proof that Em didn't lie about his childhood or sobriety or his love for rap and that he has a good heart for example (hence why he has helped and supported these dudes despite all the bs they do, that's an indicator of his personality for me, in a good way i might add). And it's clear he has some traumas/issues from all his background or that he really went through a lot, which are reflected in his music. Or maybe im just to naive to accept that reality or just have high expectations from people.Of course there might be instances where he lied or got annoyed or pissed for sure, like all ppl he's not perfect, but not enough to call someone a "pathological liar" or a "horrible person"(while writing this i realized that you were probably talking about Royce there lol or maybe not, which is fine). From what i gathered after reading your posts, you don't actually have a problem with Em, his team is the "bad guy"..Hope you got my point, i certainly got yours. I enjoyed reading your posts and made me realize some stuff.

I don't do all this to just get attention or something, these are my thoughts...and since, if you were talking about Em in that part, what "snake shit" did he do? What had he lied about that you call him a "pathological liar"?Royce is the one who did all this shit and the other idiots from Em's circle and Em got collateral damage from it...or maybe im just dumb and didn't see how Em really is,altho this type of behaviour would've been seen years ago and probably been called out for it...

But i think im going to follow you and leave this board too (don't know if i'll delete the account or not yet) but as much as i like talking and viewing y'all opinions and had learned so much, all this is taking a toll on my mind, in the case it makes me feel sad anytime i see Em and doubt everything about him, and honestly i personally would be better off "enjoying" Em's music and all stuff on my own. I don't want to start to believe Em is a horrible monster just bc y'all believe that and hate on him just bc of that, just an example. Also when i post something i get so much anxiety too for some reason and im done clinging to absolutely every word y'all say and lose sleep over it.Eminem means a lot for me, as an artist and person, and i want it to stay that way, maybe until i will get away on my own. Of course everyone has their own opinions and i get and will respect that, but here's my opinion.You can call me an idiot or idk what comes in your mind for it. Hope y'all have a good day and keep enjoying what you love. I certainly got a fun ride and thank y'all for it